My TAM experience so far

my before

So here I am at level 2 day 5 (round 2) of Tracy Anderson's Metamorphosis, Omnicentric. I am not much thinner. But I can't expect to be since it has taken me two months to do 20 workouts. I have a multitude of excuses as to why. I got sick, my kids got sick, my husband was away, my autistic son is only allowed to attend school a few short hours a day (to be explained in my other blog), and the list goes on.
But the truth is, at some point, I have to make the decision to get serious about my health and taking time to work out for my own sheer need for it.
I have always believed that if you want something to be different then you have to make it different. But I have always had a bit of an arm chair attitude about it, like advice I am dispensing to the air around me, but not actually following through myself.
I am truly hard on myself. I am being hard on myself this very moment. What if what I am writing is lame, what if no one reads it, what if people do read it and they don't like it! And worse, what if they DO like it and I have to follow through and continue being witty, funny, and profound every time I write. Or, heaven forbid, I have to keep working out in order to justify a blog!!
I say to that voice (the beast), Whatever, you have had your day and your say. It's my turn now! I intend to be fabulous! Get out of my way!

When you set about to change your life one workout at a time, so much comes up. Obstacles jump out to deter you, people misunderstand you, you trip over your own shoe laces, miss weeks at a time in a single blink. I often feel like Alice in Wonderland. It can be quite a trip!
So I just need a place to vent about it all.

I have a trip to Australia coming up and I want to drop some weight for that so I feel good in a sun dress. Time is ticking away.
Goal time:
1. work out 5 days a week for an hour, in the morning.
2. eat less junk.
3. eat lunch.
4. drink more water = 6 cups a day, at least

Happy TAMing!

PS: I am about 5lbs down from the above pic. I will post my stats after I have a better photo to show the progress.